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by Jean de Caussade
No longer give way to the grief that
arises from the difficulty you experience in concentrating your attention.
Remember that the mere desire, if habitual, of recollection can serve in
recollection's stead, and that we have only to be unfailing in our desire to
think of God, please God, and obey God, in order to think of, please, and obey
him indeed.
The greater your wish to learn to
pray, you say, the less is your ability for prayer. That might well be because
your wish is not accompanied by a sufficiently complete submission and purity
of intention. Always go to prayer with the one desire to please God, and not to
draw conscious delight from it. Go to it in a spirit of sacrifice and to get
out of it all that should be pleasing to God. Realize, moreover, that
recollection is like those things that escape our minds when we are
over-anxious to remember them, but that return to us when we treat them with a
certain passive indifference: this is the teaching of St Francis de Sales.
Never lose sight of that great
precept that asserts that great spiritual poverty, known, felt and loved out of
love of the abjection it brings, is one of the greatest treasures that a soul
can possess in this world, since knowledge of it keeps the soul in deep
humility. To believe, on the other hand, that you are lost because you make no
discovery in yourself of clearly perceived faith and charity, and to be
thereupon vexed, disquieted, or discouraged, is a dangerous illusion of self-love,
that for ever longs to see all things clearly, and in all things to have reason
for self-complacency. When we experience this temptation we must say to our
selves: I have been, I am and I shall be all that shall please God; yet,
intellectually and in the apex of my soul, I want to belong to him and serve
him, whatever may be fall me in this world or the next.
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